Last night i decided :

Not to cry over silly thing/small stuff.
Not to really think what a future hold up for me.
Not to hope for consistently phone call, texts or attention everyday.
Not to plan for anything big or hectic thing, just follow the flows, accept what comes to me with open heart.
Not to hoping for something too much, people can is change; that im going to put in mind.
Not to think much about anything, everything.

and

To do what i think the best most for me.
To do some self-reflection. Isit me who really need to change or what?
To do what i already decided to do (of list above)

There, i've decided and im sure nobody cares!