p.l.e.a.s.e

I hate this feeling, uneasy.
I dont know why they didnt understand when i yelled, scolded, pot pet to them, its not because of hatred guys, common' la its for ur own good!

I realise there a few of u that doesnt seems to understand how important to struggle at this point, if not u gonna regretted it forever. I been there once, i knew how it feel. Its hard, people who put some much efforts & hope in u will disappointed and u going to broke their heart badly, people will look down at u, everything u do, doesnt seems enough for them, people who care most about u might go away, they r not going to trust u anymore.. and at that moment nothing u can do except for REGRET.

and to gain it back, u might have to struggle even more harder than u do now and trust me, it wont that easy.

Pls la, change ur attitude, be more serious, think of ur future, stop play around so much and try to be better not only for ur own sake, but also for those people who have fate on u.

I have fate on all of u. I know if u put lil bit more efforts, nothing that can hold u.
Pls dont let me down.

xoxo, cikgu is

smile

I miss that smile (the smile from guy in black jacket yer, he insisted me to state which smile haha)
Always do.

hugs!

It is over.

happy face :)

so now school annual sports day was over and i was dancing my ass on the table! Everything went well as planned and i felt like one big burden being lifted away from my shoulder by the time it's over. im trying really hard to get my job done & if anyone who may concern doesnt satisfied, so what i want to say is, back off idiot, its over!

so as a result for 2 days of school sports, my arms and face got quite a sunburn, my skins are dry & looked really hideous and this gonna avoid me from wearing sleeveless for a very longgg period. huhu
I am wondering how it going to recover back, luckily i hv this milky lightening lotion from garnier that made those sunburn fade away already & seriously, it made me feel much better.

Here some pics that I managed to snap during the day.



ugly faces : By or michelle?? :)
Opening Ceremony :






pom pom girls
** till next year!

i miss u too

Last nite, Dy sms'ed me these 3 lil words "Dy rindu By.." but i was in a deep sleep & only read it when woke up this morning, feel touched & sad the same time. I knew he must be really tired and needed me by his side.
& here it goes what i feel to return him the favor :)

Honey,

I miss u all the time.

I miss u when something silly happens and I think of how we'd laugh about it.

I miss u when im having a bad day and i know your smile would cheer me up in a minute.

I miss u when there's exciting news and u're not here to share the celebrating.

I miss u during ordinary moments, when just being together would make the day special.

You hv a forever place in my heart that no one else could fill.

and whenever we're apart, I cant help but missing u ~ a lot!

xoxo

Food frustration

update

Finally i watched Transformers last weekend yeah.. it wasnt in our plan actually, around 7.00pm on cold saturday evening, we went out for dinner sbb malas nk masak..I was so craving to eat steak at Mega hotel but then we changed our plan and headed to new place in town called Selera Warisan..the place is cool, very cozy but unfortunately the food are really2 poor, thumb down!
I ordered this, sizzling beef with black pepper sauce & rice, at first it seems quite interesting with all the smoke flying out when the waiter bringing it to our table but when came to the taste; its suck! aku rasa mcm mkn black pepper yg sebiji2 tu ahdoi, then we ordered sotong celup tepung, rasanya pun sgt funny, yatt cakap kue teow tomyam dia pun biasa jeh and ma punya chicken tomyam tasted exactly like yatt's hahaha..


boleh nmpak black pepper yg ditabur2 tu kan

teh tarik ni jeh yg ok

I was like, im not coming back to this place, seriously! so after all the food frustrations, we went to Bintang Plaza just to check out the movie show and lucky for us, Transformers showing at 9.15pm, so we immediately purchased ticket but still we missed the beginning though.
I told Dy before the movie,
"sayang, by nk tgk transformers ni” and he was like "eh ada cinema ke sana" hahaha..
Of course la ada honeyyy..
This is miri city okay, not pekan miri just like u people are imaging! so the show was awesome, and by the time show ended, I felt better already.

Woke up a bit late on sunday morning, making breakfast iaitu prawn fried rice and after that doing some paper marking, watching Friends on tely and taking nap.
In the evening we went to Bintang Plaza again to do some shopping. Ma bought DKNY Delicious Night perfume, me & yatt shop for shoes, I bought wedges, loads of chocolate, big apple donuts & yatt bought pair of heels. Felt good to spend some money even though I officially broke this month after spent quite a fortune on Dy’s birthday presents :) but doesn’t matter, with money or no money, I still need shoes right..? goddam right haha



ehh need to run, no time for photo loading, will update later. tata

fat fat

Last wed, went to the hospital to do some regular check up for my confirmation position. Im all alone and been there for almost 2 hour was suck! they did urine test, x-ray dan some regular check up like counting my blood pressure, testing my eye sight and weighing my weight, they using this really old 'penimbang' and i was like "err, are u sure this thing works properly cause it shows that my weight is 58kg!! what!! serious la tak caya..

i feel fat but not that fatla kan..

need to figure it out, or i will end up looking like tong drum huhuu

God, i missed blogging. Today is already 7th of July and work is getting crazierrr.. all these kejohanan olahraga thingy already gave me headaches for almost a month! and it wont start until next week and i know so many thing can/will happen in between the period; i just can see it coming. hate.

yesterday i woke up with my migrain on the head and felt dizzy, went to school feeling annoying to the fact that i hv to wake up early for almost 3o years ahead. damn! i cant do any single thing properly and went home as soon schooling ended.

luckily today i feel much better even im not really in a good mood. got 2 more classes to go before i can rest my head.

so guys, later yeh. no mood to write anymore :(

Self~Poladroid

great saturday

Like i said before, i hate this period. Got lot of things to get settles and i started to feel disgust! It’s not easy when u have to deal with person who seems doesn’t know even one stupid single thing even though he hv been doing the same thing for years!

I know this period will past in few weeks and im going to dancing my ass soon!

So saturday was a shopping day but it wasn’t for me but more like for Dy, to shop for his birthday present specifically. yeah I am a terrible fiancée hehe..

Because of my hectic schedules, I am running out of time but i promised him that i will post it out as soon as possible. So sorie yea honey :))
I bought few things for him, hopefully he going to likes it as much i enjoying his present for my birthday this year and i also hope it gonna surprise & lighten him up a lil bit.
So sayang, just wait yeh, it will arrive any time soon. Pls enjoy and let me know what u feel :)

After did some shops & i got everything i need to put into Dy's parcel, we went home and after that rushed to Kak Luv's house because they are having bbq/surprise birthday party for Kak Haslina. It was fun because we turned off all the light and waits before she's came home shocking to see all of us gathered together.

ini yg kami bawa



berebut mic ngan ma hahaa

By & Birthday Girl

The party was great, we have so much fun and after so long, i did karaoke & sang 3 songs upon so many request haha..

Left the house around 11.40pm, had a great time on saturday.
xoxo

movie to watch

i am seriously dying to watch Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen because of Shia LaBeouf! but it is not in town yet.

"Info : Shia means gift from God" and he really is a gift for all of us :))

Hopefully im not gonna miss it regardless of my hectic workload lately and i just realize that i am a big fan of him :) i think he's super talented, sweet good looking and even with his puppy eyes, he suits bad boy character perfectly!

Dy already watched the movie and im soooo jealous of him! When the first Transformers came out, we watched it twice, together and that made me so sad loh. We really had great times back then.

Honey, if i miss the show, make sure u gets me the finest ciplak dvd yeh. pleaseee..